Life goes on like a sinusoidal wave. Soon after my last
post, things kept changing suddenly giving little time for me to keep pace.
A lovely start to the Tamil New year…. but alas, short-lived
joy. After a week full of unknowingly the last time for many good things shared
with her, a life changing incident brought her to the dingy indoors of a
hospital. Thereafter 2 months of ceaseless pain and agony. Two months of
togetherness, but hardly. Two months of service, but to no avail. Two months…. and
I lost the most important person of my life.
Another two months pass, and even while I am trying to
gather myself from the grief, the news of a brewing baby in my tummy. What an
irony, like she left the vacancy for me to get the seat…. Motherhood.
Come the next Tamil New year, we impatiently awaited the
arrival of our child. He was born; a tender, innocent bundle of joy - Akash.
The next few months zapped past amidst poop filled diapers,
wet cloth nappies, lullabies and silent conversations with my little one over
feeds. Time flew as I looked forward to each development and every new action
was a milestone reached. From staring at eternity, to the social smile, to
kicking around, to the motor sounds, the first flip, the toothless grin, the
first inch forward, the jabber, the sitting, the first pearly white, the
standing and most recently, the first step ahead.. I kept ticking them off the
list.
In between of so much, the initiation to the day care
happened. And of course, my return to work.
After months of late nights shuttling between the baby and
work, work finally slowed down. With A turning one, the night feeds stopped
allowing me night-full sleep after more than a year.
The usual chores keep the days busy but the rage is over. Life
is back to the schedules with mornings packed with cooking, dropping A at
daycare and getting set for office. Evenings are well-spent playing with A and
preparing for the next days. The time is come again when I have time for
myself, time for the blog, time…
Is this the calm after the storm? Or before?
